i need Imogen to hold her and never ever let go tbh
[Image description: a loose, watercolor style illustration of Imogen and Laudna from Critical Role. Imogen holds Laudna to her shoulder, gazing past her to look beyond the viewer with a stern, protective gaze. Laudna is limp in her arms, cradled safe in her arms. End ID]
Listen I cannot blame Marisha Ray here because if I was looking at Laura freakin Bailey and she said, out of the blue, even in character, “Can I kiss you?” I would panic and fall off of my chair too
Imogen talking about how she can’t hear Laudna’s thoughts, and Laudna sounding so sad to have another barrier, even as she says it’s a good thing, because it makes life easier for Imogen; Imogen clearly struggling as well to put into words that she misses hearing her, that the pain being gone is wonderful but but but….(Imogen, “I just hate not knowing” while they’re separated, Deanna saying oh you’re used to knowing everything because of the mind reading, aren’t you?), Imogen remembering sitting at the table as Laudna breaks down, trying to help, and not KNOWING how to fix it, trying anyway, floundering a little, it’s different, its different. Laudna weighed down by so much change and now Imogen can’t even hear her thoughts, could this make it worse or better? Imogen doesn’t know but she’s not got the flittering of surface thoughts to read like tea leaves, to try to interpret, she can’t hold it in, and all she can do is ASK.
Laudna perhaps thinking here is another foundational thing irrevocably changed. Another thing lost that she can’t even blame anyone for. Then Imogen recontextualizing that change. A GOOD change, a hopeful, beautiful, wonderful choice, “Can I kiss you?” and oh, different can be the best thing in the world, but she has to make sure Imogen knows how she’s different too, so she knows what she’s choosing, and the moment Imogen says you’re not a bad person, I know you, and I choose you, I choose you, “I kiss her again.”
Just. Fuck. “I said you’re my anchor, my tether, we are that for each other.”
marisha character #3 navigating a new romance with her best friend while visiting marisha character #1 who is about to be informed that her former boyfriend is trapped in an orb perpetually screaming in pain, while marisha character #2 is awol with a wife at home who probably has no idea what happened to her
look, yeah, if laura bailey showed up at my dnd table looking like this and her character wanted to kiss mine i would also immediately abandon my plans to not romance anyone
Marisha was (if we take her at her word, which why not) trying to play an unromanceable PC. Just didn’t think of it. Wasn’t expecting it. Obviously as a player picked up on what Laura was putting down but was trying to dodge it as best she could.
But Laura Bailey is the ttrpg equivalent of a Dragon Age modder. Ain’t nobody non-romanceable without explicitly being Aro, or exclusively into men.
And over 65 episodes, Marisha crafted a story about a girl who thought she was too monstrous for love. One who didn’t let herself think of it. One who was more afraid to lose what she had in a best friend than to let it be anymore.
And Laura just played Imogen as a dumpster fire sapphic failgirl in love with her best friend from the start. And one who couldn’t make the first move, because she’d forever have to hear Laudna’s thoughts rejecting her. So That Burn Was So Slow.
But burn it did. And things built up perfectly. Imogen had the protection of the circlet, meaning she’d only have to endure heartache not a constant bombardment of thoughts. For one of the first times, Laudna was the jealous one. And after weeks apart. Weeks of not seeing each other. It was the push they needed.
And Laura gave Marisha the chance to say no. It would have been heartbreak and drama and they would have done a hellova good job with that. But Marisha made sure that Laudna not only initiated the second kiss, but fuckin pranced around when they reunited with the group and that’s super important to show Laudna accepting of and happy with that change. That chance.
Anyway I have a normal amount of feelings about this.